Friday, December 14, 2007

more wonderful babies

I just got back in touch with an old friend who left my job to go elsewhere. He's part of a long-term gay couple, younger than I am, and his biological daddy clock's been going off for a while.

He and his lovely husband have adopted a baby and he's going back to work after 3 months of paternity leave.

Yay, she's adorable!

I Want One!

My uterus is rusting!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I wish

That the person wailing in my apartment wasn't the cat.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Hi There- New Pregnancy Envy Blog here!

This is a new blog.

I'm writing because I want to be pregnant. I'm 38, recently married to a wonderful man who just turned 30, and we've been married a year. This is my second marriage, no kids the first time.

I'm intelligent, educated, happily married, urban, childless, and all I want right now is the white picket fence. I want to move somewhere greener with a big back yard, work from home, and have a baby. NOW.

I am surrounded by pregnant people. My supervisor's wife is pregnant, a good friend at work just had a baby, someone else is 6 months pregnant. One of my best buds has a 18 month old. I work with a lot of young women who are getting married, having babies, etc.

And I looked for a board to talk about this on, and I couldn't find one! Lots of infertility blogs. Lots of talk about men envying their partner's experience, or women who are having hard pregnancies envying women with easier ones. None for the I-want-a-baby-but-worried-about-money-and-career, is-it-too-late, we-might-want-one-but-I'm-not-sure-I'm-ready, uterine-alarm-clock-dinging, etc, wanting of a baby, but not sure how to rearrange a life to make space for it.

My husband is wonderful, but he's much younger. Also, he's had some instability in career issues, and is finally back in the field he thought he wanted to be in to start with- teaching. But for right now, that means subbing. Which means not a lot of money. And we live in a big midwestern city, which means money.

So right now I want want want a baby, and I'm not sure how to get there from here, except the usual ways. :)

Thanks for listening,

Wanna Baby